On hindsight

Tomorrow marks my first day of the spring semester. I am sort of looking forward to it, and sort of not looking forward to it. On the plus side I have my Art and English courses tomorrow... but on the minus side I am really not expecting too much out of them, if they turn up anything like my courses from last semester. Still, it is kind of nostalgic... I suppose the idea of tomorrow kind of triggers high school memories. I mean, I will be there all day so I will need to pack a lunch, and it's an art course. Hopefully I can listen to my IPod and the wallflowers.
In hindsight, if I could go back to high school I would do a few things differently, one of which would definitely be putting effort into my grades so that I didn't find myself going to BCC now. I would have defiantly like to have gone to a better school where I might feel like I am actually learning. Unfortunately procrastination and lazy sauce got the best of me... so here I am. It can't be helped, hindsight is balls.

Similarly drinking while depressed is not a nicer dicer idea, and in hindsight is another thing I would have avoided the other evening. Spilling my heart, and a good portion of stupidity onto Kelly wasn't the best of ideas, but at least I am pretty positive at this point she knows most of my feelings concerning her. Since that point a few people have told me I've left the ball in her court. But the truth is, it's been there all along. And at least I didn't mess everything up.

I really want to get myself a copy of Guitar Hero world tour... if for no reason other than to get good at the drums. I can do vocals, play the guitar on hard/expert, and play bass on expert. But I feel like such an ass for making people watch me fumble through a song on easy or medium whilst failing at the drums. If I got a copy of the game myself, it's something I could fix on my own and feel like I'm not bringing other players down with me. I would also like to get up to expert on the guitar at some point, which probably requires a significantly larger amount of time invested then I have been.

I'm going to start playing Magic the gathering again, after all free time (minus homework) = Nicer Dicer and needs socializing!

A tired travy

(It starts with)
One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on / but didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter