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Saturday, May 9, 2009

On blatant indecision

The semester is coming to a close and I will soon have more than a couple of hours a day to myself. But that leaves me looking forward to next semester. The plan was to switch to an Associates in Science major to get ready for a pre-med program. But I am torn, I really enjoyed my Art and English courses this semester... They are just hobbies and all, but I really do enjoy it and now I really don't know what to do... I guess i have a few days before I sign up for classes.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

On Literal Interpertations

I could never be an artist as a profession. I lack the talent, or at least the required focus and attention required in my opinion. But regardless, I enjoy it. Not necessarily the end product, or even the process of drawing is what stimulates my mind. But sitting down and focusing on something. The same applies to my musical dabbling with the guitar, my writing, or any art form I mess around with. To an individual like me, the act and process of creating art allows me to focus my senses on something, to an individual like me art is an excellent way to discover imperfections.

My mind attempts to interpret things as perfect as can be. Geometrical symmetry, clean and crisp forms. It is because of this I am fascinated by fire, constantly changing and constantly consuming the imperfections of anything it can get a hold of, to feed its own perfect imperfection. In my opinion it's a dangerous way to see life, seeking perfection and sense in the imperfect and irrational. And so for that reason I appreciate the artistic process, at least the step that lets me recognize the imperfections around me, even if I can't represent them properly.

I wonder how long I will have to be in my relationship with Kelly to not fear that it's something only temporary, or something not serious. I am sure the feelings I feel for her are nothing of the sort I have felt for anyone and I am sure she feels the same way for me, but still I find myself questioning just how stable my last relationship left me with relationships in general. I fear I am damaged on too many levels sometimes, and despite my many securities I still have those nagging insecurities that everything is going to fall apart again, not that they are justified in any way shape or form. I worry that I may and possibly do overdo things to make up for the fact that I just can't shake my coldness to the people around me off, even if I am sure I show Kelly just how much she means to me.
Which of course is everything, even I am second to her in my mind...

A relaxed Travy

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

On overwhelmed by gaming

As of late I have picked up a game for every system I owned that I seek time to play... it is generally terrible for my school work!

Playstation - Final Fantasy 7 (Feel like replaying it again)
PSP - Final Fantasy Tactics (Kyle gave it to me as a joke, I think I am willing to give tactical RPGs a shot again)
Ninendo DS - Rhapsody/ Pokemon Platinum (Pokemon consumes most of my time)
Xbox - Resident Evil 5

I may even end up buying No more Heroes finally for the Wii...

But yeah.... working full time and going to school full time really does suck sometimes. Honestly though, I mostly have Kelly to blame! With the exceptions of Sundays and Tuesdays, if there is free time to be had, it is to be spent with her!
That isn't terrible though, that isn't bad at all. This is the first relationship that I can honestly say that 100% of the time there isn't something I would rather be doing than hanging out with her. It's great, the feelings I find myself being overcome by.

The feelings I have for her leave me realizing that she is one of the few friends I have now, that 30 years down the road better still be in my life. Ben and Decker are probably the only two other friends I feel that strongly about, friends that have been in my life for a very long time... people that have been there for me for as long as I can remember.

Not that I don't love all of my friends, just the feelings I have for them are something unique.


They are the individuals I trust heart and soul, no questions asked. If hypothetically one of them told me that ejecting myself into space out of a space shuttle was the only way I was going to survive, even if it was a terrible idea at the time... I would probably do it.

Although Decker has a habit of saying red lights are green...

I suppose I can't emphasize enough my inability to trust people completely, as a result of my belief that trust leads to manipulation.

I can't emphasize how difficult it is to demonstrate and convey my feelings for my friends and family.

I know I love my friends, I know my love for Ben and Dan is equal to that of my immediate family.

I also know that love doesn't begin to describe what I feel for Kelly.

Gawd Pokemon is so nostalgic

A Travy smitten with love!

I was sick of restrictions sick of the boundaries about to close the door
Such a lack of conviction no real connection what should I settle for
But you caught my attention you built on the tension and you left me wanting more
Now I don't know what to do with myself do with myself
I don't want nobody else

I let you in I let you in and you infected me Can' t get enough of you
I breathed you in and now I'm in too deep
Don't think I'm pulling through
Can't get enough of you

You're so contagious Running through my veins
you're so contagious Holding onto every word You're so contagious
And I can't get away
You're so contagious and now I know for sure there is no cure

I saw your intentions i gave you permission Go ahead and start the war
I was out of addictions by my own admission oh I've been keeping score
But you made an exception you taught me a lesson
Who cares where I've been before
You would never leave me all by myself you don't want nobody else

I am burning in your fire
I have only one desire
i can not deny her

Now I don't know what to do with myself I don't want nobody else

You keep running through my veins

Thursday, March 19, 2009

On poetry

First and foremost, a poem I threw together:

Symbolizing Love, Beauty, and Perfection
Even more perfect when one discovers the imperfections in your cut.
Perfectly imperfect.
Words cannot truly capture the ideals you represent.

Two Diamonds
Identical in their imperfections, a statistical improbability.
A mold crafted to encompass the pair in warm flowing gold.
A perfect pair of earrings.
One isn't complete without the other.

But the Pair isn't together
I seek you out and I steal you away
It isn't a crime, it's a necessity
to attain perfection.

Of course one word in there isn't actually a word... but it's all good

I finally beat Chrono Trigger the other day. Generally it was an all right game, but I didn't really get into it until the very end. I guess my issues were
  • The storyline
  • The final boss
  • I really didn't get into the combat system until the endgame
Maybe it was just too simple, I don't know, it seemed like the first half of the game was melee + healzor on occasion, and the second half was unleash super abilities of win with megalixers ftw. Even in fights that apparently had a strategy to them I was supposed to do... I just muscled my way through. With the exception of the last boss of course, which was still just me unloading my end game abilities once one guy was out of the way until death.

But regardless I started Rhapsody for the DS, and Resident Evil 5 for the 360 the other day.

Resident Evil 5 so far is exactly what I was hoping for, it truly is a game where you "run for your fucking life for hours until you die." Of course that idea kind of fell on death ears for the first level where I tried to muscle my way through the executioner dude... only to find out I could actually run away from him and just fight the masses on the roof. It's a good time.

Rhapsody really is a musical video game, with periods in the storyline where the cutscene is actually the characters singing... and you kill people with fricken pancakes, it's lush. I'm glad it's following like a turn based battle system, I was told originally it was a tactical RPG, which I just can't stand.

But Rhapsody might be taking a brief break as the new Pokemon game is coming out.

Gawd, I think I will always be a Pokemon junkie.

A content Travy


Wednesday, March 18, 2009

On Holy Shenanigans

Man, I didn't realize Pokemon Platinum was coming out! Going to have to get myself a copy... and the free Regigas from Toy's R Us... Oh well... have to make another post later. But for now, cookies and poetry!

A poetic Travy

The betrayal you see coming is trivial. What is truly fearsome is the betrayal you don't see.

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Seeing arch-enemy

I'm looking for someone in the Binghamton Area
I've been trying to think of ways to spice up my life. I'm 21 years old, and my life is fantastic. But somethings missing. I feel like I'm old before my time. I need to inject some excitement into my daily routine through my arm before its too late. I need a challenge, something to get the adrenaline pumping again. An addiction would be nice, but, in short, I need a nemesis. Nothing crazy. Steal my parking space, knock my coffee over, trip me when Im running to catch the bus and occasionally whisper in my ear, "Ahha, we meet again". That kind of thing. Just keep me on my toes. Complacency will be the death of me. You need to have an evil streak and be blessed with innate guile and cunning. You should also be adept at inconspicuous pursuit. Evil laugh preferred. Send me a photo and a brief explanation why you would be a good nemesis.

British accent preferred.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

On Hallucinations

The other day I ended up getting terribly sick. It's unfortunate, I'm not a normal person who gets sick when the weather is terrible out, I get sick when it's nice. Regardless, it ended with me missing 2 days of work and a day of classes. The advantage to my getting sick was that it sent me on a delusional spree of creating some fever induced mathematical system that didn't make sense, and only confused me greater.
Okay, that wasn't the real advantage, the real advantage was that whenever I was conscious Kelly was around. Generally speaking I would pass out when she wasn't here, and wake up to her being here. It was excellent.
Still, in my state of mind I was afraid I was going to die as a result of my brain melting from the fever...
I fear death.
I am sure I have said that before.
If there is one fear I have above all other fears it is that of death. It isn't because I am a god fearing person I fear death either, I am fairly confident that if there comes a time for me to be judged God will see that I am a wonderful individual. Or at least, in my mindset he should. The only issue is I refuse to follow organized religion. Most religions deem that I should burn in hell or something along those lines as a result of that refusal, which is something I would rather not do. Still, while the morals organized religion teach are generally fine and dandy, the war religion breeds isn't.
I'm a firm believer that God generally doesn't want us waging war in his name. The crusades, 9/11, those are all no-nos in my eyes. I don't think that the god our respective religious books teach us about would approve of such actions. If he does, I'm not confident I would want him as my god anyways.
Still there is always the idea in the back of my mind that I may be making those reasons up to use as excuses to endorse my own sloth. After all, I am not the kind of guy who wants to get up every Sunday morning to go to church.

Of course, I lie when I say I would prefer not to burn in hell. While generally speaking if I was given the option of not burning in hell for eternity or burning in hell for eternity I would obviously pick the later, there are situations where I would pick burning in hell.

Being aware

I want to be aware forever, for all eternity. As I said... I fear death, and I fear that death because in my mind that means I become unaware, non-existent and unaware. Honestly, if I was given the choice between suffering agony for all eternity and being aware; or being peacefully non-existant forever I would pick the burning agony.

Or at least I used to think that...

Now there is a third option I look to, that generally keeps my mind off those options. If I could spend the rest of my life aware and with Kelly, I would be happy with the non-existance at the end.

My life feels complete with her around. Our personalities, our thoughts, our feelings; they aren't all identicle, but they all complement each other perfectly. If ever I could be inspired to write a poem or a song about something, it would be about my feelings concerning her. And even then, I wouldn't be able to do it because I just can't shape words around how I feel for her.
My relationships of the past all arguably had their ups and their downs.
I've had my good and bad life experinces.
But nothing, nothing I have ever felt concerning anything has ever once touched the level of feelings I have for her.

Everything I want in a girl, everything I have wanted for so long.

The person I have wanted to be with for so long

It's finally all there.

A happy Travy

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

On 25

Nyeh, figured I would rip this off of facebook, feel free to post your own!

25 Random Things about Me

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)

1. I have been waiting to get tagged by one of these ever since Mark Roosewater wrote about it in his article last Monday, I guess I am an attention whore
2. I have issues with grape jelly, specifically on sammichs... the idea of eating it sickens me...
3. I enjoy making things more complicated then they have to be
4. I secretly enjoy confrontation, although I generally avoid it.
5. For having a desire at a degree in English, I certainly do have a ton of grammar and spelling issues
6. I am incredibly lazy, I really can't stand the level of responsibility I am maintaining right now.
7. I put syrup on things I probably shouldn't, as generally while my taste buds may enjoy it my stomach doesn't.
8. I have serious issues with telling lies, I have a hard time doing it.
9. I am incredibly self conscious about my teeth.
10. I am incredibly good at bullshitting, I have bullshitted my way through a good portion of my life.
11. I honestly enjoy working at the Giant, really, it isn't a lie. I look forward to my job.
12. I'm not a racist, but I am always afraid that I come off as being one.
13. Trust is weird with me. It is easy for me to trust people with a lot of things, but deeper/higher levels of trust are extremely hard for people to earn with me.
14. I am afraid I don't spend enough time with my family.
15. I feel that people rarely love or hate, and that true love and true hatred are very scarce in our world. Also if you use the word hate I will be sure to correct you, but not necessarily if you use the world love. I am way too positive
16. I enjoy hugging people, it calls a lot of question in terms of my sexuality and I am okay with that. I'm not really bi or gay, but I am okay with people thinking I am, it makes me giggle.
17. There are times where I am really ashamed to be an American, and so I hope to someday move out of the country
18. I am an eternal optimist
19. I signal every intent, even if it's switching lanes and there is no one around me for miles.
20. I love being a gamer
21. My pride revolves around my honesty, my ability to spread love, my commitment to my friends and family, and the fact that I am generally very right, and very good at the things I do.
22. I really don't have a clear focus on what I want to do with my life, although I would be content to spend the rest of it with the girl I am with right now.
23. My inability to zero in on what I want to do with my life also has adverse effects on my hobbies. I am okay at playing the guitar, drawing, gaming, etc, but I really have a hard time focusing on any one individual hobby.
24. I enjoy giving people nicknames, sometimes they make no sense whatsoever.
25. Coke, not pepsi si vous plait.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

On Solidarity and not so Solitary

With the wonderful Mid-semester Break from BCC this last week, I managed to take a Saturday off from work and play in a Legacy tournament. I haven't actually ever managed to play in a Legacy tournament before, but way back when we were all planning a trip to play in a Grand Prix or something along the lines and we proxied up some of the archetypes we might see to play test the decks we built. It was at that time I first played Solidarity, and fell in love with it. After we were done with the proxy decks, I saved Solidarity, slowly replacing the proxys until finally it was completed in Philadelphia. But I never actually played it until this past weekend in a real tournament, and while I didn't do win or place incredibly well I still had a great time with it. I actually did better then I expected to...

Arguably I fumbled a bit on the sideboard, I ended up sleeping in and not going through my collection with enough time to spare, leading to some mishaps such as Train of Thought...

My matches were relativity simple, most of them I either managed to go off or I didn't...

Match 1 - Threshold
Game 1 we both mulled down to 6, he drops a bunch of critters which I wish + evacuate after he empties his hand before going off on his next turn.
Game 2 he gets mana boned against me, allowing me to build up enough lands to hardcast fows on his disruption vs me, I go off pretty smoothly from there


Match 2 - Merfolk
I may have been able to win this if I though straight, although the player I played against was pretty good and at the very least top 8'd. My first game he ended up Fowing one of my resets, which I wasn't ready for and the second game he managed to counter most of my shenaigans as well. If my sideboard and mind had been better prepared I may have been able to pull out a win here. Merfolk are going to be tricky for me for a while...


Match 3 - Elves
The first game I managed to go off without a problem, although if I hadn't of managed the turn I did he would have had lethal damage on me, part of the fun of playing Solidarity I suppose! The next game he managed to overwhelm me with his creatures a tad too fast, although the Choke he dropped was mucho unnecessary. And finally game 3 I managed to counter any shenanigans he played against me, it was a good time!


Match 4 - Cephalid Breakfast
I probablly played this match too defensivly, and at the wrong spots. But it happens I suppose, I am rather confident in the future I will be able to win this match up a tad more. Although it was pretty cool the second round of our match I managed to win with just 3 cards, Reset + Brain Freeze + Brain Freeze hehe


Match 5 - Elves (Again)
This deck actually looked like the same elf deck I used to run back in the day, my casual janky elf deck and for more irony points was piolted by someone else named Travis! I did lose the first round though as a result of my inability to draw any of my engine, the rest of the match was cake.


Match 6 - Really not sure XD

The deck had Tarms in it... I remember that much, and I came close to going off the first game but couldn't draw a brain freeze for the life of me... was very lame sauce. The second game I got smacked around on a bad draw... boy do I hate bad draws...


22nd place out of 40 something people isn't terrible, especially in my mind because of the fact that I haven't previously run this deck in anything serious. I think with more playtime I could win some of the matches I lost, even though the deck is relatively unplayed now a days. It was very satisfying though, people routing for me because I was the solidarity guy...

My life is pretty brilliant right now. Me and Kelly are finally together, which is something I have wanted for a long time. I am generally a very cheerful individual, with some depression buried beneath my cheerful visage. But I am definitely happy now, honestly happy. This is also the first of my few relationships I have been in love with, honestly in love with. I haven't felt the level of feelings I do for Kelly as I have for anyone in the past. Arguably many of the people I have been interested in over the years, or have been interested in me I compared to her... I should have done things differently a long time ago, but in the end it worked out to the now. So I suppose the ends justify the means to some extent.

Of course we have our differences, she prefers Pepsi and I prefer Coke, but that is something we can work on.

I am glad my first run in with fruit on the bottom yogurt didn't ruin it for me.

A Solidarity not so Solitary Travy

I don’t want to fight
Every single night
Everything I want is in your eyes

You and me go back
To places I don’t know to care
The spoils of all I got were left for scraps.

Don’t let me say this,
but you’re no worse than me,
It’s crazy

We are the real, if real ever was, and just because
We are the real, they feel we have enough,
We are the real, ‘cause someone gave us up

I want to be there when you’re happy
I want to love you when you’re sad

Can’t stand the morning rain?
Get out I'll take your place then
Can’t stand the blazing sun?
Then close your eyes you’ll see
The angel dust

I don’t want to be
Anything believed
A million watts of sound can’t compare

Come along you’ll see the world
The pulse ripples, the crowd unfurls
The current starts to flow and then you're on

Oh it’s white hot soul they want,
to sing for

We are the real, if real ever was, and just because
We are the ruin of every living soul
We are surreal, ‘cause someone gave us up.

Don’t break this oath!
I want to love you when you’re happy,
Don’t break this oath!
I want to be there when you’re sad,
Freeze-frame the pouring rain.

We are the real, as real as any ghost,
So easy now,
We are the real, in every living soul
Oh don't they know

Can’t stand the blazing sun?
Can’t stand the morning rain?
Oh get out I'll take your place again.

I don’t want to be alone
Oh I don’t want to be alone
I don’t want to be alone at all

If it’s a white hot soul they want
then a black heart they’ll get.

Monday, February 16, 2009

On writing essays

Hehe, first essay of the semester... and thanks to procrastination all I have is my introduction done T_T Damn you Magic the Gathering!

Obedience and You

Society, past and present, dictates to its youth, or rather all members of what is considered to be “civilized society” that in order to be a constructive part of this society there are rules and regulations that must be followed. In order to maintain what we have become, and in order to advance that which we strive to become you must follow those rules and regulations. Many times we are expected not to be individual members of our society, but rather to be part of the mass, part of the legion of society. Our government on every level expects this legion to follow those rules and regulations mindlessly and without question. Still, many individuals who have helped our society to progress to the point that it is now have been individuals who broke away from that mindless mass obeying of rules and regulations. There are times and places where it is imperative that in order to maintain our humanity, and in order to be a productive member of society, that we break free from our rules and regulations and become the individual, that we disobey the laws set down for us.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

On remember remember the 11th of February

Tomorrow is the 11th of February... how nostalgic. Every year that goes by it means a little less to me thankfully, and yet when February rolls around I can't help but think of it. And while generally I would be the one to form the resolve to bring it up, this year it wasn't me... not entirely, I may have over looked or forgotten it this year thanks to some more recent turns in the tides of my life... but I guess it just can't be helped. Eventually it will all subside and everyone will move on with their lives, but that isn't this year apparently.

BU... I sent in an application for it today, hopefully I get in. As much as I am enjoying BCC this semester, I really don't want to go there. It's not my idea of college, it seems so much like a watered down version of high school minus the drama. And while I enjoy my professors its kind of lonely not having anyone in my classes I really know, not that BU would be better in that respect but at least I would be proud to be going to BU. Still I generally doubt I will get into BU. I have my high school grades and a semester of BCC to send to them with my application. It's all a very mehish kind of thing, and probably a waste of my 40 dollars. But at least I am trying, and who knows, maybe my self doubt in other aspects of my life are carrying over to my self doubt in applying to BU and I will get accepted. Would be awesome. Things to do Thursday: Get my transcripts sent over.

I also got a free Blackberry Pearl today. Of course I had to renew my contract with Verizon and tack an extra 30 dollars a month on for the whole Blackberry experience, but it's worth it. I've wanted one for a while now, and from what I have heard from some Blackberry Storm owners the Pearl was better anyways. If nothing else it's an upgrade to what I have now, and should be fun to fandangle with.

I should have my new car on the road this weekend, adding to my list of things to do Thursday includes going down to my car insurance agency and getting the new insurance cards for it. I think eventually I will fix up the tad of paint that came off and get myself some Autobot Decals for it. Should be a good time

Wow this entry seems so uncoordinated... guess it's kind of like my mind right now

Life is cheesecakey

A mehish Travy

Far away
This ship has taken me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

I will be chasing a starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold you in my arms

My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive

I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold you in my arms

Far away
This ship has taken me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold

Friday, February 6, 2009

On my Shards of Alara Release event

I need to start having a little more confidence in my deck building. I am pretty cocky as is when it comes to constructing decks, but there is always a form of lingering doubt when it comes to playing draft or sealed events. I lack confidence in my decks initially, and then they end up working just as well as I would have hoped Arguably I didn't do as brilliantly as I usually do last night as a result of my least favorite aspect of MTG... mana screw. Oh well, here is my sealed deck:

1 Wild Nacatl
1 Valeron Outlander
1 Deft Duelist
1 SIgiled Paladin
1 Wandering Goblins
1 Sunseed Nurturer
1 Knotvine Mystic
1 Rhox Charger
1 Rafiq of the Many
1 Meglonoth
1 Skyward Eye Prophets
1 Rockcaster Platoon

1 Kaleidostone
1 Obelisk of Bant
2 Manaforce Mace


1 Resounding Silence
1 Might of Alara
1 Gleam of resistance
1 Traumatic Visions
1 Fiery Fall
1 Resounding Thunder
1 Bant Charm

4 Plains
4 Island
4 Mountain
4 Forest

Looking back on it I really shouldn't have run Rockcaster Platoon, he was generally worthless and I have no idea what I was thinking other then "OOoo Big menz with hurtz to flierz and playerz." In reality he is very not good... But on a positive note, one of my MVPs was Wandering Goblins, many people overlooking the fact that I could pump his ability more then once.

The Match Rundown:

Me and Paul decided to run our decks into each other quickly. He ended up getting a Nicol Bolas, Planeswalker... and managed to drop it against me, blowing up my Manaforce Mace equipped to my Meglonoth. Luckily I had a second in hand, and managed to swing back into his planeswalker to murder it down and eventually take the game.


I ended up playing Kyle first round, and the only thing better then pwning one friend wicked bad when they drop a Nicol is managing to pwn another friend after having to mull to 4. But Kyle called it, saying I would probably still manage to win somehow. He dropped a couple of dudes that managed to take me down to 10 before I drew enough removal to take them out. Then I dropped Rafiq of the Many and swung throwing a Might of Alara my critters way. 16 damage in one hit and I took him out the next turn. The second match I ended up dropping a Wandering Goblins with my trusty Manaforce Mace. Kyle underestimated the goblins ability (and wasn't the only one) and ended up taking a bit too much damage from him.


The next round I played a kid named Chris. Game 1 I got mana boned, and he swung into me repeatedly with his Esperzoa. That game ended up quickly. Game 2 nearly ended in his favor as well, with him managing to swing into me with evasion critters and use Sludge Strider and Onyx Goblet to slowly wittle my life down. But some removal later and dropping my Sunseed Nurturer managed to offset my loss of life, and eventually I managed to overpower him with dudes. Game 3 was another close one, but swinging with a Mana Force Mace'd Sigiled Paladin and Wandering Goblins, with another underestimation on the goblins part won me the game.

I had actually gotten pretty tired at this point and forgotten to take down my opponents name for this match... and the next one. The first game I managed to win as my opponent decided to underestimate a Wandering Goblins once again... with my mythic Rafiq of the Many out... it was an easy one shot. And my next 2 games I would draw almost nothing but lands... giving him the match

After my mana boneage the last round I kind of wanted to drop this one. I could still top 8 though, not that it ended up mattering. More mana flood for me and an easy match win for my opponent.

In conclusion I really can't stand the random aspect of the game that is mana screw. It doesn't matter how brilliant a player you are you can still easily take it to the face just because of poor luck. It happened in Philly, and it happened again tonight. Oh well, it generally can't be helped... honestly anyways.

I am honestly kind of disappointed that I didn't get a Progenitus. While it is probably very Timmyish of me, I really want to build a deck around him... a 10/10 pro everything, that two shots people! I have an interesting idea for a deck I think, and hopefully I can get my hands on him.

Bleach had a pretty epic dialogue today
Ichigo: Take care of Inoue. If Inoue's Rikka can't shield her from my energy, shield her with your body.
Ishida: I would even if you hadn't asked.

Hehe, Ishida is such a cocky mother trucker.

Kyle gave me a copy of FF7 whoot :D

Life is pretty fricken wonderful, and only stands to get better at this point IMO

A mana boned Travy

I am thinking it's a sign that the freckles
In our eyes are mirror images and when
We kiss they're perfectly aligned
And I have to speculate that God himself
Did make us into corresponding shapes like
Puzzle pieces from the clay
True, it may seem like a stretch, but
Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled
Head when you're away when I am missing you to death
When you are out there on the road for
Several weeks of shows and when you scan
The radio, I hope this song will guide you home

They will see us waving from such great
Heights, 'come down now,' they'll say
But everything looks perfect from far away,
'come down now,' but we'll stay...

I tried my best to leave this all on your
Machine but the persistent beat it sounded
Thin upon listening
That frankly will not fly. you will hear
The shrillest highs and lowest lows with
The windows down when this is guiding you home

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

On King of the Hill

Ever since I was a kid I enjoyed the game king of the hill. Hold the high ground is the name of the game, and all throughout my life the things I have enjoyed most involved holding that high ground. The simplest thing to look at is my former love of MMORPGs. I picked classes that could sit there and take a ton of monsters/mobs/players, classes that could hold that high ground.
Travy, my Tibian Knight would grab up dragon lords and dragons, tank the damage and bring them down. My Warlock Travstopher on World of Warcraft, and my Paladin Travy, could aggro a dozen plus mobs of their own level or higher and take them down.
In Magic the Gathering I build decks to bring to the multiplayer table that absolutly have to be stopped or they will win. I build those decks with tanking multiple players in mind, and my favorite games are those games where everyone teams up to stop me and just can't bring me down.
That is part of my pride, these king of the hill scenarios. These one against the world scenarios.
I also pride myself in my general moral well doing. My going against the will of society in favor of doing what I think is right.
Unfortunatly I fear I have given up some of my moral high ground, taking a hit to my pride. But my pride still seems to be fully intact, unshaken in any way shape or form.
I suppose time will determine what damage, if any my pride has suffered.

A contemplative Travy

No one gets out of life alive.

Friday, January 30, 2009

On refrences and terrible drafting of win

I finally read Orwell's essay, Shooting an Elephant and understand the reference in Meet Bill. It's pretty funny.

I ended up doing a draft last night/this morning. My first tournament since Morning Tide probably... and it went a lot better then expected. The first pack I opened ended up having Excommunicate in it, so I decided to draft something with white. Initially I thought the card was an instant, and once I realized it wasn't I was pretty disappointed. It still won me a couple of games though, I hear getting rid of blockers is pretty good. Then I was passed Realm Razer, which I ended up taking because I need him for another deck. I ended up going Red Green White... the decklist obviously follows. I lucked into a couple of big beasts, although someone else was in my colors as well so I didn't get as many as I wanted, but took mana ramp in the form of Obelisks regardless seeing how as the orignal plan was to abuse Realm Razer. And then my second pack I got Hellkite Overlord. I'm not going to lie, he was orignally just a rare draft for me. But I saw I had obelisks to fit his color and in the deck he went. The following is the end result:

Some of these cards like Angelsong, and Welkin guide are probably by no means picked in decks normally. But I figured they might help me out of a rough spot, and they did. Namely one of the last rounds I played I had my opponent down to 9, with him having the kill on me next turn. Luckily I had my trusty Thoctar out with Naya Battlemage out. A topdeck into the Welkin guide for 9 overhead damage and the match win was most excellent. I ended up going 3-1 and taking 2nd place.

I would go into more detail but this has been sitting on my computer for the last few days, and really can't remember my matchs all that well xD. The Draft was enjoyable because Kelly was there though, even though she got mana boned almost every game... too bad this week the naab is going to Comicon >:[

But with magic the gathering in mind, it looks like we are going to start doing casual friday MTG, and drafting thursday nights. It should be a good time! I have all ready worked my Hellkite Tyrant into his own little deck ^_^

Ah well

A magic playing again Travy

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

On Nyeh

Well I am still pumped about this semester at BCC, my professors continue to be amazing. My English Professor especially is pretty nicer dicer, and makes me look forward to coming to class every day. Today's discussion started with a poem with an epic line, "The best lack all conviction, while the worst are all full of passionate intensity." We even had a discussion on prejudice against emos. How much more nicer dicer can it get?

Unfortunately my shitty car broke down today, making me quite the emo. I really can't stand life sometime, especially when I am correcting a problem a month with my car. How exactly am I supposed to save money.

Nyeh... at least there is a new House out... that will distract me for a while

An emo Travy

Oh, my life is changing everyday,

In every possible way.
And oh, my dreams, it's never quiet as it seems,
Never quiet as it seems.

I know I've felt like this before, but now I'm feeling it even more,
Because it came from you.
And then I open up and see the person falling here is me,
A different way to be.

Ah, la da ah...

I want more impossible to ignore,
Impossible to ignore.
And they'll come true, impossible not to do,
Impossible not to do.

And now I tell you openly, you have my heart so don't hurt me.
You're what I couldn't find.
A totally amazing mind, so understanding and so kind;
You're everything to me.

Oh, my life,
Is changing every day,
In every possible way.

And oh, my dreams,
It's never quiet as it seems,
'Cause you're a dream to me,
Dream to me.

Ah, da, da da da, da, la...

Monday, January 26, 2009

On Tradition

One thing that always seems to consistently leave me awestruck, and doesn't seem to ever change, is just how well the combination of lust and greed go together. I suppose all of the original sins combo well off of one another, but lust and greed strike me hard as a c-c-c-c-combo. They have been around for ever, with the exceptionally attractive leeching off of the exceptionally rich and vice versa, an almost symbiotic relationship.

I suppose I look at it as being shallow, money buying love that is. But on who's end really? Is it wrong of the terribly well endowed to ache for money? I mean I know I would love to happen into a ton of cash, but would I be willing to trade my body over to someone for their own pleasures in exchange for a comfortable lifestyle? I would really hope not. As a matter of fact I am pretty sure I wouldn't, not in most cases anyways...
Unfortunately if you tangle the second part of the equation I might just be tempted, as one also has to ask themselves could you resist someone who is infinitely attractive to you. While I seem to be able to easily manage avoiding pursuing the whole lust bit (Arguably because I am not that confident with my own looks and that probably helps), if some incredibly attractive chick wanted to pay me to sleep with her I don't know how well I could resist. A comfortable lifestyle + sex with someone I would be all lusty over? How amazing could that be.

Still, I try to keep to the mindset of money can't buy you love, what's sex without love, etc etc etc. Doesn't everyone in the end seek someone who is both physically attractive and mentally attractive as well? Honestly, I wouldn't date someone who I saw as unattractive regardless of their level of mental intellect, or how well we matched up. Does that make me a terrible person? Does that make me shallow? I think so, if an individual is unattractive to me it just isn't going to fly, so be it.
But everyone is shallow. It's another one to add to my list of laws on humanity. No matter what anyone says or does, in the end they would really like to be with someone they are physically attracted to in addition to their mental attraction. And for some people, the physical attraction is all they want, more then willingly sacrificing any chance of what I deem to be a real relationship. We are all shallow, just everyone has different tiers as to what they find attractive.

And speaking of character flaws, I really need to stop procrastinating, I still have English and psychology to do for tomorrow and I should all ready be going to bed. It can be helped according to some people, but I am quite content in my ability to procrastinate. Even without world of warcraft I still mindlessly browse the intrawebs....

A still procrastinating Travy

I'd never lie to you
Unless I had to I'll do what I got to
Unless I had to I'll do what I got to, the truth
Is you could slit my throat
And with my one last gasping breath
I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Infinite Willow Elf Recurssion Combo

Tiffzoring for mah blog for teh memories

This deck was inspired by a deck of mine I called Cycle of Delicious. The deck ran Riggers, and Willow Elves, and we convinced a member of my playgroup that it had a 17 card infinite willow elf recursion combo in it. Naturally we were kidding around, but in a group chat the other day, we threw together that 17 card combo, and created infinite willow elf recursion combo deck.

The combo

Part 1: Infinite Willow Elf Recursion.
Willow Elf
Ashnod's Altar
March of the Machines
Reito Lantern
Verdant Succession

First, you are going to need 2 willow elves, 1 in play and 1 in library (2). You will also need a Verdant Succession in play to insure that when a willow elf dies, you are able to get another one out of your library (3). In order to make sure you constantly have a willow elf in your library, Reito Lantern is necessary (4). A method of fueling Reito Lantern is via sacrificing Willow Elf to Ashnod's Altar for 2 mana (5). Unfortunately The Lantern's ability costs 3 to play, and the altar produces 2, so we needed to reduce the cost of the lantern's ability some how. And so, Heartstone was suggested (6). But the stone only works on creatures, and so we needed to somehow animate the lantern, thus we splashed blue for March of the Machines (7).

At this point, you have infinite willow elf recursion combo online. But in order for it to advance game state, we had to add some sort of win condition. Naturally throwing a second heartstone in there with a Squall Line could work, but where is the fun in a 7 card combo?

Part 2: Advancing the Gamestate
And so Fecundity was added so that everytime a Willow Elf got sent to the graveyard, we got to draw a card (8). The next step was adding more creatures to the deck to play with the combo. But unfortunately infinite colorless mana doesn't play green spells, and cool as Mycosynth lattice could have been, we didn't want to blow up peoples lands, that's just plain rude. And so, Aluren was added, ensuring that we could play anything we drew for free (9). 2x Child of Thorns was added so that we could pump our men an infinite amount of times (11). Tarpan was then added so that we could gain infinite life in the process (13). Concordant Crossroads was added to ensure all of our men could attack the turn they came into play (14). And finally 2x Loaming Shaman was added to ensure we wouldn't deck ourselves (16).

So we only managed a 16 card combo

Is that so wrong :<

Ah well, the final decklist:
2 Child of Thorns
3 Joven's Ferrets
2 Loaming Shaman
4 Spore Frog
3 Tarpan
2 Tree Monkey
4 Willow Elf

1 Aluren
1 Concordant Crossroads
2 Fecundity
3 March of the Machines
3 Verdant Succession
3 Ashnod's Altar
3 Heartstone
2 Reito Lantern

16 Forest
6 Island

On Foodstuffs

Ever since becoming a vegetarian my desire to eat meat has lessened more and more. At this point I have uncommitted myself from my diet, but still stick to it for the most part. Generally speaking I just don't have a desire to eat meat, now it is more of something to eat if there is nothing else on the menu. I find myself desiring boca burgers over regular burgers. Arguably a good thing...

And so long as I am thinking on food, oranges are pretty amazing. I had them for the first time earlier last year at a Japanese restaurant, and tasty as they may have been I didn't pursue oranges any further. I had some again at the Chinese buffet I went to a little while ago... and decided this time to actually pursue eating them further...

The artificial orange flavored thingy-ma-jigs I have eaten over the years couldn't begin to prepare me for just how tasty actual oranges are. Even orange juice which I love fails in comparison to eating an actual orange. With Kelly's help I learned how to peel them myself (I'm that much of a chump) and now eat one or two daily. I wonder if that is a bad thing...

Nyeh, I am still procrastinating, at this point I have been on the intrawebs for 3 hours doing nothing when I had planned on doing homework right away, god am I a bothersome individual sometimes.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

On my list of weaknesses, my list of human traits, and sweet sweet victory

It's about time I got a few things out there. First and foremost, Inauguration Day this year marks one of the first times I have ever been proud to be an American. There is something about Obama that I trust, and I think he is going to do great things for our country. I am adding an Obama poster to my list of posters to get, and hanging it right over my bed, maybe even with an American flag. That is just how much he inspires me. God Bless America

With that out of the way, I figured I would publisize a couple of lists, which of course are subject to change (seeing how as I actually can't remember all of them at the moment).

First and foremost, my list of traits that describe humanity,

  1. People don't hate
  2. Everyone gets off on something
  3. People lie
  4. Everyone deserves a couple of chances
and nextly, my own list of personal (positive) weaknesses. Hopefully not to be abused too often.

  1. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _
  2. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _
  3. _ _ _ _ _ _ _
  4. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _
As if I would devulge my intermost secrets to the intrawebs... silly people

LSD + Catterpiller?

A Munchkin cat loving Travy